Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you
did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me
'cause baby I didn't
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me
That should be me
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time
to have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me
you're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
it's working 'cause you know that
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me
I need to know should I fight
for our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
this pain in my heart
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me
holding your hand
that should be me
oh i makin you laugh, oh baby
that should be me
(that should be me givin you flowers)
that should be me
talking by hours that should be me, that should be me
that should be me
never shoulda let you go
I never shoulda let you go
that should be me
Wednesday, March 24, 2010 @ 9:59 PM
"princess , go on cam. its been 5 years I just wants to see how you look like now "
" if you go on , ill go on too "
"lol okay fine '
( invite me to cam with him )
Honestly , i didn't regret it . I LOVE seeing him. It was like a dream come true. FIVE looong years. And actually being able to that was AH.
Im deeply scared. I know that I've had different crushes every DAY , but at the end of the week his the one I settle with. Theirs just something in him that i cant miss out on . i wonder what it is. I hate having to go through all this thinking & wondering and all this bs. When i know CLEARLY that were not meant for each other. " why is he staring at me ?,omg princess just smile and act like you don't notice. " Im not crazy for thinking that , I fully saw him STARE at me. He was smiling and it felt like his eyes were locked . It gave me this WONDERFUL feeling , and along with that my mind started making fantasies. OHGULAY!. See , the more I avoid each scenario and try to move on from where I left of , before realizing my true "feelings" for him , the more it comes back, and I start to wish and hope that everything I IMAGINED will come true. I just hope that I wouldn't go crazy for him in the future.
As of now , I'll think positive. And not rush the Lord with his plans between Christian & I . Who knows maybe he would grant my prayers. If i just wait patie
SVI & BCD. says:
alright so you gonna tell me whats up or not?
PATRICIA BANIQUED : I S U!. says:
nothing personal. its just literacy and shit.
SVI & BCD. says:
:O
you said shit.
tsk tsk tsk.
PATRICIA BANIQUED : I S U!. says:
its just literacy and shiz
SVI & BCD. says:
you sure about that bud?
PATRICIA BANIQUED : I S U!. says:
I GUESS SO .
SORRY CAPS*
SVI & BCD. says:
alright then..
well im gonna call it a night.
peace princess.
PATRICIA BANIQUED : I S U!. says:
night.
lkuya
SVI & BCD. says:
lol "kuya".
SEE ! Every time we end a conversation i would always say " kuya ''.
Patricia STOP IT ! but now that " kuya " he said in the end got me thinking . why did he put " " that ?
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 8:12 PM
How is it that when I'm with my friends , all I can think about was getting a call from the zoo person saying i got the job? And as soon as I arrived home BAM it was you that came in and threw everything out the door. I dont get it ? are you trying to annoy me without actually being here ? or did you rent my brain so that YOU'LL always be on my mind. cause if that was the case ; LEAVE ! i dont need you right now , if you wanna actually bother me come over and do it . the more you do that the more my mind plays games with me. " how did i let myself believe that miracles could happen , now i have to pretend that i dont really care. " SHIT MAYNE .
SUMMER JOB I NEED YOU. I NEED YOU TO KEEP HIM OUT OF MY MIND. PLEASE ! YOUR MY LAST HOPE. stupid isnt it? but its the truth.
HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY'
- job fair / town with ; lopez , gomez , pyhdiah.
- cars honking at us
- CUTE CHINESE/KOREAN GUYS.
QUOTE OF THE DAY ;
"the TTC's like a
bad boyfriend, never there when you truly need him, always there when
you dont" -joannalopez
Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 8:12 PM
I say:
stupid to fall for him
18:50:03wayne :B says:
thats
ridiculous
18:50:03wayne
:B says:
-.-
18:50:11wayne
:B says:
its stupid to let it get to you
18:50:23I say:
THAT TOO
18:51:22wayne :B says:
are
you trying to convince me to believe you?
18:51:40I say:
yes!
18:52:43wayne :B says:
change
your mentallity
18:52:45wayne
:B says:
seriously
18:52:55wayne :B says:
its
coming of ridiculous
18:53:05wayne
:B says:
and im really disliking it
18:53:16I say:
how?
18:53:39wayne :B says:
how
as in how to do it? cause I cant answer that
18:53:53wayne :B says:
or
how? how am I looking ridiculous
18:54:14I
say:
that
18:54:42wayne :B says:
youre
coming off ridiculous because Ive already gone though this with you so
many times
18:55:24wayne
:B says:
you have no excuse to not know right
from wrong seeing at one point I was there guiding you
18:55:44wayne :B says:
*
in this perticular case*
18:56:12wayne
:B says:
the only thing holding you back from
what you already know
18:56:22wayne
:B says:
is the state of mind you are puting
yourself in
18:57:04wayne
:B says:
if you dont change it, your declaring
yourself a victim of self sorrow and failure
18:57:10wayne :B says:
you
know better then not to be that way
18:57:12wayne :B says:
:\
Besides
from Joanna , or Elizabeth theirs this one person that will GO OVER HIS
HEAD just to make me realize that im going over board, his the one
that I trust with everything. We end up flirting at times but we can
keep it cool. WE get into fights but again he comes to apologize or (i
do) .his the one with the sweaty hands , the one who stayed on the phone
with me until it was time to go on the plane . his the one who gave me
PIGLET . yes yes PIGLET !
so WANDA keep doing what your doing . and thank
you for putting up with me.